Sunday, August 18, 2013

SunDay FunDay

As we come to the end of summer I am trying to make the very most of everyday because I know once fall comes I have a long wait until the warm weather returns. Today is one of those summers days that could just go on forever because it is so great. Most summer days are great but there are some that beat out the rest.
I rate my days by how many amazing things happen each day. It pretty easy to have one amazing thing happen but how many people have three amazing things happen each day. I know I do, at least I try to make sure there are at least three. Sometimes it's just not my day and I feel like nothing amazing happened which means on another day I really have to make up for it.
Today five amazing things have happened and the day isn't even over yet! It's just one of those days that is going so well that even if something not so awesome happened, it wouldn't bring me down one bit.
I love summer!
a.m

Thursday, July 4, 2013

Canada Day

For the long weekend I went out to our family cabin at Arlington Beach Camp. There were tons of people out and many of them I probably could have visited with and had a grand ol' time with. But I did not do that. On Saturday other than talking to my dad who was also at the cabin, I only talked to one person, Carol, she was working in the Tuck-N-Put and I went mid afternoon to get myself an ice cap. So then what on earth could I have been doing all day, one might think to themselves. Well, I was doing something completely not natural to Annie Archer. I was reading. Weird, right?!

Well, a few days ago I picked up a book, The Glass Castle, and begin to read it as I waited for my mum to finish work so that we could go shopping. I had only picked it up a few times when at home, so on Saturday when I grabbed it again I was only on page like 50. I still had a very long way to get to the end and still wasn't sure if I would make it or if I would just stop like I normally did when attempting to become someone who likes reading. I finished the book by early afternoon. I just couldn't put it down, Jeannette's life was completely the opposite of the kind I have had. In one way it was exciting and in another way I found myself thanking the Lord for giving the life I have. I found myself laughing at the adventures her family went on and then crying for how she had to grow up so fast.

I had always kind of seen my family as being poor, we most definitely weren't well to do, but comparing Jeanette's life to mine I am for sure not poor either. Her father played dirty treats on people for money and then normally spent it on booze, while her mom didn't want to do anything but paint (and from what I read she wasn't overly good at it). Her and her two sisters and be brother were mainly having to fend for themselves, wear the same thing over again and be parents to their parents. They lived in a car a lot, went from town to town causing trouble and never knew when or where their next meal would come from. Now when I thought I were poor, I realize we went. At one time we had seven vehicles, a nice house in a more expensive neighbourhood, always had food (I didn't always like the food, but it was always there), had a cabin, a camping trailer and I went to a private school. That doesn't scream poor at all. Yes we looked like a used car lot for a while since most of our vehicles were brought off Kijiji, our cabin is about 100 years old and looks the part, we didn't have the money to buy brand me things but we still have money to buy things.

So, from that book, first came the realization that if Jeannette can come from mainly being a nobody, the lowest of the low class, to a journalist in New York City, I can come from being a small somebody, with many people supporting me, to anything I want as well. The second thing, was that I have never been poor, and all the times I thought is was, I was very wrong and need to be way way more thankful for everything I do have since compared to Jeannette being allowed to take one thing every time they move I have a ton of stuff.

The next book I read was on the iPad, one mum had been telling me all about and how she felt so inspired from what this lady did. Since I hadn't brought out any other books with me and had to wait until Mum came out on Sunday, I thought I would at least start reading it and see what she was going on about.

Well, let me tell you, after only eating rice for a month in grade 12 to see what it would be like to not have another choice for food,  Jen Hatmaker's book, 7 : an experimental mutiny against excess, about the seven areas of her life she was going to change/work on, one each month, really hit me in her first chapter. It was about food of course and then I was sucked into her book and had to know what happened in the rest of her months. The seven things she wanted to work on were food, clothing, possessions, media, waste, spending and finally, stress. Honestly, all of those thing I am pretty sure, if i wanted to admit it I struggle with. I love food way too much, I have enough clothing to not have to re-wear anything for about a month and still I say I cant find anything to wear, I own things I haven't touched in years and probably don't even know I have, I like reality TV and my magazines, I don't recycle - everything goes in black bag and to the dump, I like to think I am good with money but I do tend to save save save and then spend spend spend and finally, I stress about like everything.

In the second month of her project while she is dealing with clothing and how for the month of February she only has seven items to wear, she says something that I think all the time but then have that little voice in the back of my mind telling me that will never happen. Here is what she says: "I hope one day clothes and appearance and everyone else assessment doesn't occur to me.  I would like to be so focused on the valuable that what I'm wearing doesn't even warrant mental space. Not the fussy, concerned, indulged obsession with clothes; not the conspicuous, public, distracting reduction where I am now...but the zero balance of priority is where I hope to land." There isn't much more for me to say about that, since she says it pretty well. Almost like she and I were thinking the same thing.

I finished reading about Jen's experience on Sunday morning so that afternoon I was able to begin the book which my mum brought out to the cabin for me. Even though there were more books on the iPad for me to read, it's just not the same holding the book, thumbing through the pages and actually being able to turn the pages. I do truly think it is working this time, I am becoming an avid reader.

The third book I read over the weekend was called Have A Little Faith by Mitch Albom. I have read a lot of books by Mitch and have loved them all. They all have made me think and strength my faith for sure. Anything by him I would tell others to read, for one its always a good story, if that's what your wanting and then they've got some great themes too.

I'm not sure what I'm going to be taking away from this one. There are lots of great things, like the importance of spending times with our elders and hearing their stories and hearing their wisdom on life. I know that there are of people's could be taking the time to talk to hear their stories and getting their life wisdom.

Love,
a.m

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Because You Asked...




There are really no other words that need to be said once you look at that picture of those two girls and then look at my best friend and me together. We are those two girls. We got to see part of the world together and grow in God together and grow in our selves together and learn what it takes to have a healthy friendship.

 


Without you I would have been uncontrollable on the first drive to The Hill, I would have been lost on so many adventures we went on and I wouldn’t have had someone to take care of and take to the doctor. I wouldn’t have had someone always caring about what I was thinking or feeling, I wouldn’t have had someone to sleep over with all the time and I wouldn’t have become a better speller. There are many ways that you have changed my life for the better and many ways you have opened my eyes to always living life to the fullest and never missing a minute of anything. 

I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you...
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good
(For Good from musical Wicked)

You asked me to blog again because even though it was really for when I was in Texas you didn’t get to start reading it until the very end and now you want to continue. I don’t know why cause it really isn’t that exciting, mainly just my thoughts. But this one is for you Jo cause every brunette needs her blonde best friend and I know I got one in you.
Love You Jordyn.
a.m
 
 

Monday, May 27, 2013

Home

Well folks, I am kind of out of words to say at this point. I am home though, home to where my parents live and around of my family. Home to where I have grown up around and the things that remind me of my child hood. As much as I love my home, there are lot of things I love about the Hill. I love how about 30 girls live in one building so you are never alone because there are people everywhere.
 
I love how everything was centered on God – five hours of class a day, prayer before and after meals and being with a bunch of people who want to grow in Christ.
 
I love the hill country area the school was in and watching the sun set hide behind the hills. 
I love my bff’s and how it kind of started off as a joke but totally didn’t end that way.
I could go on as I could go on about any place that I have lived and all the great things about those places.  I don’t think I could hide the fact that I miss being in Texas.

Today is the first day being home, that I have actually had time to sit on the couch and be home. Since I have gotten here it has been Go Go Go. Which on one had has been great and got be back into Canadian living pretty quick but on the other hand I am still pretty exhausted and ready for some down time in the next two days.
Love,
a.m

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

11 Days


There are only 11 days left for me and Texas to be together. It is amazing to me that I have made it through a year down here and that it is time to move on to the next adventure/chapter of my life. As this last week of normal classes started we all looked around for a moment and just took it all in. Looking around, trying to remember each detail of everything we see so that we never forget. However, the harsh reality will hit at some point – within five to ten years from now we won’t remember a lot of this. One girl has been counting her steps from building to building so that she will always know how long it takes to walk from place to place. It’s a nice thought but honestly, in ten years will she truly care how many steps it took to get from the dorm to the dining hall. I am not counting my steps as I go around the school grounds but normally talking with someone, thinking about what the last teacher just talked about or replaying a memory from this year over again in my head.
Last week there were many people worried about me, I was pretty checked out and just not here. On Wednesday morning between hour one of class and hour two I found out that a very dear friend, Naomi, had passed away. I had no words to tell anyone of what had happened, why I was crying uncontrollably or what they could do. My friends hugged me and I fell into their arms and felt the Hill behind as my mine went back in time. By Wednesday night I was emotional checked out, and had been crying most of the day. Thursday night there was a horrible storm - we were on tornado watch and the ground would shake with thunder. After little sleep the night before and then the storm keeping me up that night I was physical drained on Friday. And mentally I just wasn’t there – I was reliving something Naomi and I had done, replaying memories of her over again in my head. On Saturday I watched her memorial service online and after listening to what her family had to stay about her and how she lived her life to the fullest I realized she wouldn’t have wanted me to fall apart forever over her passing.
I just looked at myself and how I was the few days before and realized how silly this all was. I still have two weeks here and I am living like I am not here because someone that I love is gone to heaven a place I have learned more about this year and long to go to. I am allowed to be sad about her passing and even shed a tear or two. But even more so I should be joyful of her passing and look upon her life as an example of how I should be living my life to the fullest each day. I just have to close my eyes to see Naomi again and I will hold close to the fact that one day I will see her again. I just have to close my eyes and go back in time to the classes I’ve taken here and the crazy things I’ve done here too. I am allowed to be sad about leaving but not to the point where life as I know it stops because life doesn’t stop, you just stop living it. Texas and I will always be together in my heart even if I am not actually still down here and Naomi, she will always be in heart.
Love,
a.m.

Sunday, May 5, 2013

Another Count Down


It might look like from the outside that our life here at the Hill is full of only count downs for something else great to happen. Well on one hand it kind of is but on the other there are so many grand adventures we go on every day that we just can’t really count down for cause we don’t normally know until after it’s over how much fun we truly had. I have learned that most of the time the adventures that I don’t feel like going on are the ones that are the most fun. However, I don’t always remember that and miss out on some great fun says some. There is no way to know what each day will hold until it’s over and you’re looking back on it – normally being amazed of what happened.
That’s really like life overall though because truly who knows where their life is leading until they look back and see everything they have come through. I sure don’t know where my life is leading. One day I am ready to pack my bags and move to some small island somewhere in the middle of an ocean, and then next day I am sure I am meant to go to Colorado and do the second year program for Torchbearers and some mornings I get up and just want to be in University all ready. For being a person that tends to have a plan for the next five years I am pretty lost at the moment. Though I do have a plan I just don’t know if it will play out the way I want it to since I have so many other ideas and thoughts of fun things to do. I can plan all I want but it might never come to pass as I want or have it planned out to be. Most things don’t happen the way I plan them so why would I be surprised about my life not turning out the way I want it too.
Love,
a.m

ps - HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE COOLEST BROTHER EVER!!